Coming back to life

A million years ago, I started this blog. I was looking for a creative outlet. My job had become comfortably hectic. Still stressful, still busy, still challenging, but all in that good, comfortable way that lets you know that you’re good at what you do.

And then everything changed at work. And then I changed jobs, and my whole world got messy.

I went to an organization that was not culturally sound, led by an insecure person with a Ph.D. in mind games. I was verbally and mentally abused at this organization, and I don’t mean that figuratively. I could not function on a personal level, because all my energy went into not getting yelled at or blamed for something. So I used games and movies as a mental escape from that insanity.

I quit running. I quit lifting weights. I quit caring about my appearance. I quit caring about much of anything other than my daughter. And so much of my family’s day to day existence fell to my husband to manage. And he’s an entrepreneur, which is an 80-hour-a-week “job”. So, he didn’t sleep for a couple years. A very long couple of years.

I have a new job. One that doesn’t include any kind of abuse. I’m starting to shed the victim mentality (hide, stay under the radar, avoid reality), and I feel like I’m coming out of a long slumber. Coming to life again.

It feels like the right time to resurrect this dusty old blog.

So… how’s it going?

OMG! It’s been, like, forever since we’ve seen each other! How have you been? I’m good. Well, I mean, I’m busy, a little overwhelmed, and I haven’t been eating that great, but other than that I’m doing really well. LOL (((hug)))

Aaaaaannnyyywaaaayyyy….

A few things have happened since I last wrote.

  • I survived the Spartan Sprint in New York! My time wasn’t very good, but I met my goal of living through it! And, I made some new friends, had a BLAST, and learned a lot about myself. I definitely need to post about my experience here. I wrote a big, long blog post about it on MyFitnessPal, and I’m proud of the accomplishment, so I need to share here, too.
  • I have let my workouts and my eating habits go to hell. I haven’t done a damn thing in far too long. I ran while on vacation, which was a huge win for me, but after that, I’ve just been slacking.
  • My housekeeping routine got completely forgotten, as I let my RememberTheMilk pro account lapse, and I stopped getting reminders, and it turns out that was all that was keeping me on track! Ugh! I paid for my pro account again, so I’ll begin getting reminders this afternoon.
  • My professional life has been very busy. There were some major changes made at the office, and as a result, the workload for everyone on the team shifted a bit. This created a burden of stress that I’ve carried with me outside the office, and I believe it is what is driving the lapses elsewhere.

As this blog is not about idle chit-chat, but about improving myself and writing about how I go about it, you must be expecting me to reveal my big plan right about now, eh? (Did I mention that I met a couple of delightful Canadians during the Spartan weekend? I did, and they were delightful, eh! Sorry.)

My big plan

I don’t have one. You heard me right. I don’t have a big plan. I believe that I’m in a transition phase right now, and I’m going to allow the fates (and my own intuition) to guide me for the time being.

While I’m being guided by fate and intuition (didn’t Jewel sing about that in a razor commercial?), I’m going to try to be a much stronger contributor at home. I’ve really been crap about that, so I owe it to my family to pick up the slack there.

That’s about it. I’ve allowed myself to be human, and I’ve wallowed in my human-ness for a few months. I am starting to feel my mojo coming back, which is awesome, and that’s why I felt the need to write today.

Tomorrow, I might have an epiphany, and decide that it’s time to create and unveil my next big plan. But, for today, I’m just going to try to do a bit better at picking up after myself and my family at home, while I continue to work hard at work.

What’s going on with you? How have you improved over the past few months? What have you experimented with? Where is your mojo? Let’s strike up this conversation again.

Image source: Firestone SA

Increase productivity with ambient noise

Increase productivity with ambient coffee shop noise from coffitivity.com

Turns out it’s harder to be creative in a completely quiet space. Moderate ambient noise, like the sound in a coffeehouse, helps. So, the folks behind coffitivity.com recorded several minutes of coffee shop activity, and now you can recreate the coffeehouse vibe in the comfort of your own office, bedroom, backyard…  wherever!

I have been listening to it while creating this post, and it is great! The recording is good quality, and includes conversation, chairs moving, laughter, utensils clinking, doors opening, and other generic thumps and thuds. The noise ebbs and flows, and I found myself nudged back to my writing by the sounds after having drifted off in my head. The recording is a little over nine minutes long, and it loops automatically (you have to start it manually, though, which I like, since it gives you an opportunity to plug in headphones, if you desire). It’s wonderful stuff, and I highly recommend it!

I’ve bookmarked the website for use at work and here at home. Great stuff!

If you use it, come back and tell us what you thought! I’m really curious to know whether it helps you.

Photo credit: QuesterMark

Today is the day

Don't procrastinate - today is the day to do all the things you've always wanted to doWhy wait another day? What do you gain by waiting? A better question: what do you lose by waiting?

Today is the day that I’m going to the gym to replace my lost membership card. I’ve waited months to do this, hoping that I would find it. In the meantime, I’ve lost out on many opportunities to improve my health, my fitness, my strength… I’ve lost so many chances to prepare myself for the Spartan.

Today, I’m done waiting. Today, I choose to do something about it. Today, I will do just one thing to move toward being the strong, slender, healthy, fit woman who looks better at 40 than she did at 30.

What one thing can you do today that will move you towards something you’ve always wanted to do?

Image source: Mattie

Why, hello there!

Hi. My name is Krys.

Allie Doodle

I’m a wife, a mom, and a full-time employee.  I am always – always – looking for ways to improve.  Improve myself, improve my home, improve how I work, improve how I live.  Sometimes I even look for ways to improve my husband.  Shhh – don’t tell him I said that.

I’m a bit of an over-sharer.  I can’t tell you how many times I saw that look on a friend’s face (you know the one… “um, did you really tell me that?”) that tells me I probably should have kept a particular tidbit to myself.  I’m going to turn the filter off here, though.  Since it’s just you and me, I figure I’m probably in a safe place.

Right now, I’m in the middle of a few improvements that I’ll be over-sharing about here.

Losing weight

I’ve lost 30 pounds since June 2012, and my plan is to lose another 20 pounds before June 2013.  I track calories on myfitnesspal.com.  I’ve been in a bit of a plateau since early December, and need to get back into my workout routine to kick start things again.

Gaining fitness

I started running in July 2012 with the goal of running a 5k.  I met that goal in November 2012.  My new goal is to do the New York Spartan Sprint in June and not die.  I also started lifting weights late last year, though I stopped going after Thanksgiving.  Gotta get back to it before I start losing muscle mass.

Finding zen

I don’t literally mean finding something called zen.  I don’t really even know what zen is.  I’ll look it up one day and will write all about what I learn.  What I really mean is that I want to get to a place where I’m no longer searching for a better everything.  I think that a healthy desire to improve is a good thing.  But what I live with every day is an obsessive need to change myself.  I’m not truly happy with me, and therefore I spend an inordinate amount of time searching for ways to change.

Organizing and cleaning my home

Having a four year old is not good for maintaining a clean, organized home.  Though, neither is having two dogs and a husband.  If I’m being perfectly honest, having ME at home is pretty detrimental to maintaining a clean, organized home.  I’m really fighting my own nature on this one.

Becoming more productive at work

I’m battling burnout at work.  There is just too much to do, and not enough time to do it.  I’m positively overwhelmed, and I’m searching for just the thing that’s going to help me snap out of it.  I’m a meeting planner for a medical association, and my primary job is to plan and execute the organization’s annual scientific meeting.  The meeting takes all year to plan, and I work on future meetings throughout the year, too.  I need to overcome the overwhelm and really get down to business.